Uuuuggghhh
That's really all I have to say about today. Today was supposed to be my cleaning/working on projects/being awesome day and I did pretty much none of that. Well, that's not necessarily true. Every bit of what I did today was in an attempt to do all of that, but every bit seemed to fall apart around me.
I had a meeting at work this morning at 9. Worst. Meeting. Ever. Who has a meeting that early on SATURDAY??! Directly after that, I hit the store, came home, made breakfast, and started cleaning. After some fun internet procrastinating, of course... :) I cleaned up the living room, got my craft area all straightened up and organized finally, and started working on yet another project for the swap. Unfortunately, this project is looking like it's not going to pan out appropriately. It's too big, I think. Or maybe it will be horribly proportioned. I'm going to finish it unless it's looking really off, and debate whether to send it or keep it. A bit of frustration there, to say the least.
I got my clay machine finally, yay! I'm really excited to get started with the other projects I have in mind for the swap. I'm hoping that I don't get frustrated at that, though. Sometimes, clay frustrates me the most, and sometimes it's the best thing after a crappy day. I'm hoping the time off I have had from it will be for the better.
I did get the swap yarn today, too! Is it bad that I sooo want to keep it??! Haha. It's so soft, and it's kind of sad, I realized that the only yarn I've ever really worked with is acrylic, and that one time someone got me bamboo yarn. I have TONS of decent acrylic yarn in my stash I'm wanting to get rid of/use up, but I'm just not sure what to make! I need some good stash busting projects that give me some motivation to knit more! I haven't wanted to knit anything for the last 3 or so weeks after all that holiday knitting I did.
I also had a sort of failed but not lost project for the swap today! It was edible, so that most certainly helped make it better. It's going to work out fine when I get the right ingredients, I was just doing a faux trial run this time around. But it was a delicious trial!
I'm thinking about making some things to post online soon, so I can make some money off the awesome things I'm capable of. Unfortunately, I'll have knits up by summer, so maybe things won't sell as well, haha. But I'm going to work on jewelry simultaneously, so maybe I'll have lots of things to post, and by the time school starts up, I'll have plenty of things to get me through the semester! That's my hope, anyway. I need extra cash to buy books and school supplies, so that money will be mega helpful right around then.
Anywho! I have an INTENSE workout tomorrow morning, bright and early (7am!) and I'm looking forward to it. I get TWO days off directly after this workout, so hopefully I won't be too sore! Wish me luck! :)
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Swordfish
And so the crafting begins, and let me just say... I'm super excited. I feel like the things I'm making will be SOOO cute and really enjoyed. I'm not going to go into full detail just because my bloggeroo is connected to my Ravelry account, and I don't want any spoils to be, well, spoiled! But, I'm making something that at first thought was dumb but now am feeling like it's really useful, considering I have one myself now! The only thing I'm worried about is that it's either going to be double knit or fair isle knitted, and that's a bit thick and is too short to fit perfectly, so I"m wondering if it's too much, but maybe it's not. I've got nearly a month to decide, and I'm putting a ton of other hand-made items in the box, so I'm not too worried if I keep this one for myself. I'll be sure to post a picture of it here once it's been received!
The other handmade items will all be from polymer clay, two of which are jewelry, and the other is a really neat refrigerator magnet set. I have the perfect little box to put the jewelry pieces in, and I'm really excited about doing them. I'm going to go to the craft store sometime this week I hope and pick out some fun things to add to it, and pick out just the right findings. I'm going to wait on doing the clay stuff though for two reasons. One, I want to really feel settled in my designs and take a lot of time tweaking them into something I want to be proud to give away, and two, I just ordered a clay rolling machine on a whim and this will be the perfect excuse to use it!! It's kind of also one of the reasons I'm ok with procrastinating on putting my craft table back together and taking down the Christmas tree! I'll get to it eventually, I just don't want to accept that it's over yet, haha.
I'm really focusing on getting this apartment clean, too. I'm tired of having everything coated in dust, but that's inevitable given the drafty little upstairs apartment we live in, but I can keep things cleaner so the dust won't hide so easily. Being a crafter (aka hoarder) I tend to collect a lot of things, and that most certainly leads to collecting junk I really don't need. I'm going to make it a project to go through all the beads, clay materials, fabric, yarn, crafts without homes, things I will never use for crafting but decided to keep anyway, and things I've made but don't like. I can take those things apart and maybe use parts of it somewhere else, instead of sitting there going to waste. I want to keep my bedroom cleaner and with little storage, that is difficult, but not impossible. I have a closet I can store things in if I clean out what's in there. It will be my project for the next few weeks. I'm in the design phase of my next big project, so I'll have plenty of time where I'm not actually doing things and I should get things like that done.
Anyway, just wanted to do a quick update for myself to keep track of what things I'm doing to make my life better and worth living. So far, I'm not doing terribly, but I could be doing better. Things to think about for next week!
The other handmade items will all be from polymer clay, two of which are jewelry, and the other is a really neat refrigerator magnet set. I have the perfect little box to put the jewelry pieces in, and I'm really excited about doing them. I'm going to go to the craft store sometime this week I hope and pick out some fun things to add to it, and pick out just the right findings. I'm going to wait on doing the clay stuff though for two reasons. One, I want to really feel settled in my designs and take a lot of time tweaking them into something I want to be proud to give away, and two, I just ordered a clay rolling machine on a whim and this will be the perfect excuse to use it!! It's kind of also one of the reasons I'm ok with procrastinating on putting my craft table back together and taking down the Christmas tree! I'll get to it eventually, I just don't want to accept that it's over yet, haha.
I'm really focusing on getting this apartment clean, too. I'm tired of having everything coated in dust, but that's inevitable given the drafty little upstairs apartment we live in, but I can keep things cleaner so the dust won't hide so easily. Being a crafter (aka hoarder) I tend to collect a lot of things, and that most certainly leads to collecting junk I really don't need. I'm going to make it a project to go through all the beads, clay materials, fabric, yarn, crafts without homes, things I will never use for crafting but decided to keep anyway, and things I've made but don't like. I can take those things apart and maybe use parts of it somewhere else, instead of sitting there going to waste. I want to keep my bedroom cleaner and with little storage, that is difficult, but not impossible. I have a closet I can store things in if I clean out what's in there. It will be my project for the next few weeks. I'm in the design phase of my next big project, so I'll have plenty of time where I'm not actually doing things and I should get things like that done.
Anyway, just wanted to do a quick update for myself to keep track of what things I'm doing to make my life better and worth living. So far, I'm not doing terribly, but I could be doing better. Things to think about for next week!
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year! Welcome, 2012!
Normally, I'm not one to make new year's resolutions, but I figured, why not start?! I made a few.
1. Stop underestimating myself. I always underestimate how awesome I have the potential to be and I really want to stop that. I never have actual faith in myself, and I never really believe I am capable of what I set my mind to do. I'm a second-guesser, and I'd like to work on that.
2. Get Healthy! I know, it's everyone's resolution, but for real this time. I've spent years being overweight, and I've spent this last year really thinking about it, but still using excuses to get out of doing anything about it. No more. No more excuses, and no more playing around. I'll figure out the best ways to do this, even if I'm not 100% right all the time. It's a learning process because it's a lifestyle change. I'm setting a small goal for myself first, which is to drop 10 lbs by the end of January. If I can reasonably manage that, I'll make a new goal when and only when I reach the first goal. I'm a big picture person, but sometimes I get lost in the picture rather than focusing on the details. One step at a time, and it'll figure itself out.
3. Encourage myself everyday. If I'm not the one encouraging myself, who is going to do that for me? Sure, I've got a lovely boyfriend, a network of friends and relatives that support me, but if I don't have that everyday, "Yes, you CAN do this," I know I'll get nowhere fast. So everyday, I'll do something to encourage myself. It's going to start by rewarding myself, writing myself notes, reading more about health/fitness/other goals to get tips, etc.
I'm still going to be the same person, just a better version of that. I can hear the doubts filling my head even I write this.
"I am, a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense
I am, what you never want to say, but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
You face away and pretend I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got"
I think that's me, talking to myself. How appropriate. Encouraging crazy to make me better? Ha... If only my therapist could hear me now!
Here's a picture of me with my Linus blanket that I carry around with me pretty much anywhere in the house. It isn't allowed to go past the front porch unless I'm sick and going to the doctor/pharmacy to make me better.
Happy New Year, and good luck!
Normally, I'm not one to make new year's resolutions, but I figured, why not start?! I made a few.
1. Stop underestimating myself. I always underestimate how awesome I have the potential to be and I really want to stop that. I never have actual faith in myself, and I never really believe I am capable of what I set my mind to do. I'm a second-guesser, and I'd like to work on that.
2. Get Healthy! I know, it's everyone's resolution, but for real this time. I've spent years being overweight, and I've spent this last year really thinking about it, but still using excuses to get out of doing anything about it. No more. No more excuses, and no more playing around. I'll figure out the best ways to do this, even if I'm not 100% right all the time. It's a learning process because it's a lifestyle change. I'm setting a small goal for myself first, which is to drop 10 lbs by the end of January. If I can reasonably manage that, I'll make a new goal when and only when I reach the first goal. I'm a big picture person, but sometimes I get lost in the picture rather than focusing on the details. One step at a time, and it'll figure itself out.
3. Encourage myself everyday. If I'm not the one encouraging myself, who is going to do that for me? Sure, I've got a lovely boyfriend, a network of friends and relatives that support me, but if I don't have that everyday, "Yes, you CAN do this," I know I'll get nowhere fast. So everyday, I'll do something to encourage myself. It's going to start by rewarding myself, writing myself notes, reading more about health/fitness/other goals to get tips, etc.
I'm still going to be the same person, just a better version of that. I can hear the doubts filling my head even I write this.
"I am, a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense
I am, what you never want to say, but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out
So I, let go watching you turn your back like you always do
You face away and pretend I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got"
I think that's me, talking to myself. How appropriate. Encouraging crazy to make me better? Ha... If only my therapist could hear me now!
Happy New Year, and good luck!
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